I miss you. I miss your smile, your beautiful voice and spirit, your sense of humor, beautiful eyes and fun personality. If only I had known.
It was just a normal Monday. You know, that day that everyone loves to hate.
It was my birthday, so I guess it wasn’t completely a normal Monday, but we had no idea that it would, for real, be a day that we would have reason to hate.
At lunch, you all sang to me, gave me a cake, but my most favorite thing about that afternoon was the note that you gave me.
When our family left to have dinner together, if I had known what was going to happen while we were gone, would we have stayed? I don’t know, but I do know that I would have said goodbye. I would have hugged the life out of you one last time. But, we didn’t know what would happen in those few hours we were gone. We had no idea that everything would change.
When we returned the yard was empty, all of the children were inside for the night, it was dark, and after checking Facebook and seeing that Marce had posted on our staff Facebook page, we saw and read of the events that occurred that night.
We saw that DIF had come, while we were gone, and had taken you and your sisters from DR. And, again, I was not able to say goodbye….
This year has been a crazy one…in the spring, DIF took you from us and gave you all to your mother. You were so happy about that, being back with her, and, I was so happy that even though you were not here all the time, your mother still brought you to visit frequently. How thankful I am, that when she realized that she still was not able to afford to take care of you and wanted what was best for them, she brought you back to us without the involvement of DIF.
As I read the news on Facebook, my mind was swirling with all of this and before I could sleep and rest for the night, I needed to know what happened. I needed to know more and so, I went over to Esteban and Blanca’s house to talk.
This is what they told me….
DIF arrived bringing with them 5 people. They were brought into the office to meet with Marce. DIF said that they had an order to take you and your sisters. That it was because your aunts believed that your mom was not doing a good job with you all, they were upset that you all were at DR, and so filed complaints about DR, which is what led to your departure.
Marce told Blanca to go find you, to tell you what was happening and prepare you that you were going to be leaving. But, we had no idea that God had already been preparing you.
“Valeria, I want to tell you something and I want you to be strong. “
“DIF is here and they are going to take you”
“Blanca, I do not want to go. This is my house and I am not going with them.”
“You know, Valeria, this is not in our hands. Let’s pray.”
You, my young, sweet friend, were given the job of telling your little sisters, of hearing their cries. I am so sorry.
“Valeria, please support them and be with them. Just pray, pray, pray.”
And, then you respond with this….
“Blanca, can I tell you something? I had a dream the night before last. In my dream, I saw DIF and they were coming to pick me up. In my dream, we were leaving on October 6. Today is the 5th. I think God was talking to me through my dream, so that I would be prepared, but also in my dream he told me that I am coming back.
I am going to tell DIF that I do not want to go. But, I will go with them if it is God’s will. “
And so, you go to the office and walk out your faith to talk with DIF.
You tell them what you told Blanca, that you do not want to go with them and that this is your home.
And then DIF tells you, “If you believe in God, and God wants you to obey, why are you not obeying? You need to obey and come with us.”
“Where are you taking us?
“You are going to the Casa de Los Sueños.”(House of Dreams)
“Is that a new house?”
“No, no, it is the Casa DIF.”
“Haha! It is less than a house of dreams!! You are not going to give me all of the attention and things that I have here!”
“How do you know that? That you are not going to receive that there, if you have not been there?”
“Because, I have heard about that house! I have friends who have been there or are there and they have told me!”
Then (because I guess you were really ruffling feathers) the transcriber pulls Marce out of the office and says. “You need to help, because if she does not come with us, they will call the police, because this is an order. You need to help her to come with us. If she does not come we will have to force her.”
So, Marce came inside and told you, “I don’t want you to go, but God wants us to obey the authorities and right now they are the authorities. You need to go with them. It is time for you to go and prepare your things.”
Blanca told me some of your last words, words that she and I will not soon forget… “You know, Blanca? I know that this is God’s will because things did not change. But, I know that God wants me to be used in the Casa DIF to open their eyes because they do not know Jesus. The things that I will be doing will be praying, fasting and reading my Bible.
You are 14 years old, only 14!! (Compared to my 35! haha) But, do you know how much your words of wisdom and faith in our God amaze and encourage me? It is painful and we don’t understand completely, but you are so right! You are a seed being planted. In my birthday note you told me and I never want you to forget it because it is true for you as well…. God has a purpose for YOU!
“Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in word, conduct, love, faith and purity.” 1 Timothy 4:12
I think of you when I think of this verse, sweet girl.
I love you so much, Valeria, and I hope that one day very soon I can read this letter to you in person.